22/07/2024 - 26/07/2024 [virgin birth│Mayfair laundromat│Nietzsche-Marx │Agamemnon]

22 07 2024 morning

An acute sense that I have to do something about a hundred times before it starts to happen, that I would need to be married eight or nine times before I was really married, that I would need to die eight or nine times before I was really dead –

But despite this, despite, in objective terms, our general condition of peak historical thick-skinnedness, our historical moment also requires that we claim to have no skin at all, that we claim total emotional and spiritual nudity. Our historical moment requires, in other words, that we interpret our inability to imagine a way out as evidence for an infinite number of ways in.

Any legitimate secular affirmation of life requires you to be able to say: it would be easier for me to take my own life than to believe. And to be fully Nietzschean requires the qualification: and by easier, I mean ‘more enjoyable.’ If you would in any sense prefer, I wanted to tell him, belief to suicide, then you’re still religious. But I mean this a…